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[05 Sep 2007|11:47pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I'm really tired of having to chnage the date and month and year on this so i've just created a new LJ. It'll be nice to get away from this one anyway. I'll be a friends only entry, and all of the people on my friendlist now are already added, if you arn't and would like to be conciderd, go there. Go to:timedoesflyohmy


Other then that, here is the end of this LJ. I'm ready to bury and burn it.

[19 Jan 2006|01:24am]
I made that last entry friends only because it was time for it to end =D

It no way hurt me, so thank you everyone for you're nice comments, namely Noir, Cher, Matt, Dejana, Sam, Tran and Ry, anyone else I may have forgot, I love you lots and its only because its late and i'm really freaking tired (work all day does that >P) Anyway, thanks guys.

and for the few people who keeps checking up on how i'm doing, i'm NOT hurt, thanks for being worried, but why would I let people who obvously have no lives hurt me? I have a big, full life now. And the sun dosn't seem to hurt that bad, though with some people you would be very surprised.

(this ought to be interesting.) [18 Jan 2006|02:41pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously.


A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like.
And post one or more things that you've always wanted to tell me, but couldnt face to face. [good or bad]

Then, put this in your LJ/GJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ/ GJ) have to say.


so enough of that, its friends only. =D If anyone calls me a coward, let them, this is simply because it seems that enough has been said. I was going to get rid of the comments, but I figured I would be nice and let those who havn't read or replied to do so, the only thing that sucks is that you will have to do it while signed on.

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Why i'm going to hell. [31 Dec 2005|12:42pm]

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Happy Halloween!

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[11 Dec 2005|02:10pm]

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I know, I know. [12 May 2005|09:13am]
[ mood | excited ]

Long time no update, I know.

10 days left of school, 15 till graduation (I think)

I wanted to put these put quick, so i'm not going to make this entree friends only, because I think everyone should see them. I got these quotes from www.stop-the-hate.org I think everyone should see them. These are things I live my life by. (kind of) I want to leave this earth, knowing that I made an impact on someone's life. So here are some things I think everyone should read.

"I can't understand, what makes a man hate another man.
People are people"

Depeche Mode

"Every man, my brother. Every woman, my sister.
Every old man, my grandfather. Every old woman, my grandmother.
Every crying child, my child. Every wounded soul, my soul."

Frank MacEowen

"When we say 'War is over if you want it,' we mean that
if everyone demanded peace instead of another
television set, we'd have peace."

John Lennon

"Every child smiles in the same language."


"Unexpected kindness is the most powerful,
least costly and most underrated agent of human change. Kindness
that catches us by surprise brings out the best in our natures."

Senator Bob Kerrey

"We cannot change what happened anymore. The only
thing we can do is to learn from the past and to realize
what discrimination and persecution of innocent people means.
I believe that it's everyone's responsibility to fight prejudice."

Otto Frank (father of Anne Frank)

"You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean;
if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.
Where there is love there is life."

Mahatma Gandhi

"If I am not for myself, who will be for me?
If I am not for others, what am I?
And if not now, when?"

Rabbi Hillel

"Patriotism is when love of your own people comes first;
nationalism, when hate for people other than your own comes first."

Charles de Gaulle

"If all this suffering does not help us to broaden
our horizon, to attain a greater humanity by shedding
all trifling and irrelevant issues,
then it will all have been for nothing"

Etty Hillesum

"Intolerance: a veil worn to disguise fear and ignorance."

Binda Fraser, Ontario Canada

"When you find peace within yourself,
you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others."

Mildred Norman, The Peace Pilgrim

"If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten
we belong to each other."

Mother Teresa


"Just as you have the instinctive natural desire to be happy and
overcome suffering, so do all sentient beings; just as you have
the right to fulfill this innate aspiration, so do all sentient beings.
so on what grounds do you discriminate?"

His Holiness the Dalai Llama

"Happily the government of the United States, which gives to bigotry no
sanction and to persecution no assistance, requires only that they who live
under its protection should demeanor themselves as good citizens."

President George Washington

"All [we are] trying to do is tell America we are not mascots.
We are people of dignity, we are people of character,
we are people of pride."

Billy Mills (Oglala Lakota Sioux), Olympic gold medalist, author, mentor, youth teacher,
speaking about the use of Native-American characterizations as sports team mascots

"Racism is a learned affliction and anything that is learned can be unlearned"

Jane Elliott

"The mind of the bigot is like the pupil of the eye; the more light you pour
upon it, the more it will contract."

Oliver Wendell Holmes

"If a man calls me a nigger, he is calling me something I am not. The nigger
exists only in his own mind; therefore his mind is the nigger. I must feel
sorry for such a man."

Dick Gregory

"In Germany they first came for the Communists and I didn't speak up because
I wasn't a Communist. Then they came for the Jews, and I didn't speak up
because I wasn't a Jew. Then they came for the trade unionists, and I didn't
speak up because I wasn't a trade unionist. Then they came for the Catholics,
and I didn't speak up because I was a Protestant."

"Then they came for me --- and by that time no one was left to speak up."

German Pastor Martin Niemoller


"I let no man drag me down so low as to make me hate him."

Booker T. Washington

"You must be the change you wish to see in the world."

Mahatma Gandhi

"If we leave somebody behind for something as ridiculous
as skin color, we all lose."

Janet Langert (wife of Secretary of Defense William Cohen)

"Marches alone can't bring integration - when human
respect is disintigrating."
"Think of all the hate there is in Red China - then look
around to Selma, Alabama."

lyrics from "Eve of Destruction" (1965) by Barry McGuire

"Hate is like a cancer. It doesn't matter if you have a
little cancer or a lot of cancer - it's still cancer!"


"You are a human being. You have rights inherent in that
reality. You have dignity and worth that exists prior to law."

Lyn Beth Neylon, Human Rights USA director

"Everyone knows how my brother died. I want you to know how he lived"

Mary Nell Verrett, sister of James Byrd Jr., talking about her brother

"Let us rise up tonight with a greater readiness. Let us stand
with a greater determination. And let us move on in these powerful days,
these days of challenge, to make America what it ought to be."

Rev. Martin Luther King Jr., on the night before his assassination

"We may have different religions, different languages,
different colored skin, but we all belong to one human race.
We all share the same basic values."

Kofi Annan, United Nations Secretary General

"I swore never to be silent whenever and wherever human
beings endure suffering and humiliation. We must always take sides.
Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages
the tormentor, never the tormented."

Elie Wiesel

"As long as you keep a person down,
some part of you has to be down there to hold him down,
so it means you cannot soar as you otherwise might."

Marian Anderson (1897-1993), singer

all done.

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[23 Mar 2005|11:05am]
This is going to be friends only. Reply to this if you want to be added, if you arn't already.

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[21 Mar 2005|07:13am]
[ mood | tired ]

Week of hell starts today.

Oh joy!

-__- atleast there is only a week of it.



I'll IM you with times sometimes this week, if I havn't already X__X

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[11 Mar 2005|07:27am]
I love streakers XD


God, If I wern't doing that preformance...

Just kidding, but it was so.fucking.funny.
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>;3 [07 Mar 2005|07:07am]
[ mood | hot ]

I got Utena Vl. 1 Grapic Novel.


Its so hott.


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Blah. [28 Feb 2005|02:17pm]
[ mood | determined ]

Its been forever since i've updated my LJ, and going though my friends list I see that everyone is going though a rough time in their lives. I want to add something, contribute, anything to make someone feel better, But I know what I say isn't going to make the situation better. So I say to all of you, I hope things work out. Everything might seem hard and though, but it will someday pass.

Now for my own depressing entry.

I know i've changed signifigantly since 9th grade. I know this. I know I don't drink anymore. I know I don't smoke anymore, and I don't do drugs anymore. I've tried to better myself, doing things that will contrubute to a better future, not one full of mistakes and darkness. I no longer have thoughts of suicide, I no longer cut myself. So I am doing better right?

Well, I was, up until this school year started. This summer had been great, minus the whole hospital thing, but I met someone great, I was actually happy. I just forgot about the past. Its not like its going to happen again. I'm never going to see my father agian, I know, but thats good. No more hurt.

But I do know i'm going though depression. I know what the motions are. I feel like I walk though a bubble everyday at school. I smile, I act happy, but i'm not. Inside i'm screaming at myself for acting how I truly feel. But I also know how much I hate pity. I hate it so much that I act like i'm happy when i'm really not.

I know i'm going through depression because all I do is sleep. Thats all I do. I over exert myself in activies I don't even enjoy. I don't know why I do so much to impress people, because the person i'm trying the hardest to impress is myself.

I miss... me. When I gave up all of those things in 10 grade, I lost my indivudality as well. I forgot about how I used to dress the way I wanted, other then the way people wanted me to. I forgot what it was like to speak for myself, to stand up for other people. Where have I gone? Or did I ever really leave?


I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibi
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...

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radom, and I HATE LJ RIGHT NOW. [24 Feb 2005|04:18pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]


by any case, the first thing I wrote about was how Cody and I decided that we need a theme song for every time we walk. My theme song should be the wistle that Ellie Driver does in "Kill Bill Vl. 1" >;3

Oh, and the second thing I put was my schedual for the week.

Friday: Co-ed slumber party at Noahs, Pops concert dress rehersial, and musical 630-10, then back to Noahs for the night.

Saturday: still at co-ed party, then musical 12-4

sunday: off

Mon: Pops concert for choir

tues: Physics night

Wed: Musical

Thursday: off?

Friday: 630-10 musical

saturday:12-4 musical

(this was more in depth, but like I said, it went poof)

Then my QOTD:

Courtney: Jamie if you don't try out for a solo for pops concert i'm going to kill you, and sell your hair on the black market for 1,000 dollars per strand.

Oh, and I love you, your great, but your mushy-ness is getting really annoying. I'm sure this is hurting your feelings, but I miss who you used to be, before you thought that I -really- needed compleat mushy-ness. Please, you don't have to say all of that stuff to impress me, because thats not the person I am.

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Rawr, survey. [20 Feb 2005|12:32pm]
1. First name?

2. Were you named after anyone?
Yes, my dad. Ew.

3. Do you wish on stars?

4. When did you last cry?
last night when I watched "Ray."

5. Do you like your handwriting?
ew, its gross.

6. What is your favorite lunch meat?
Ham, but i'm trying to go off some meat. Long story.

7. What is your birth date?

8. What is your most embarrassing CD?
Limp Bizkit

9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?
Probably not. lol

18. Do you have a journal?
both online and off.

19. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
oh god yes.

23. Would you bungee jump?

24. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Nope, i'm lazy >:p

25. Do you think that you are strong?
no, i'm a weakling.

26. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
Vanilla. Mmm

28. Shoe Size?
9 1/2

29. Red or pink?
Pink >;p

30. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
my fat.

31. Who do you miss most?
My real dad, when he was fun, and less of a jerk. That is, before he was married, and before he would beat and cheat on my mother.

32. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back?
I didn't send it to anyone...

33. What color pants and shoes are you wearing?
no shoes, and pink pajama pants

34. What are you listening to right now?
my little sisters cartoons

35. Last thing you ate?

36. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Pink or black. Used wayyy to much, and always breaks.

37. What is the weather like right now?

38. Last person you talked to on the phone?
My sisters o.O

39. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes... mmm eyes, and hair

42. Favorite Drink?
Code red

43. Favorite Sport?
I rock at table tennis

44. Hair Color?
dark brown

45. Eye Color?

46. Do you wear contacts?
I wear glasses.

48. Favorite Food?

49. Last Movie You Watched?

50. Favorite Day Of The Year?
My birthday >;3

51. Scary Movies Or Happy Endings?
Happy Endings

52. Summer Or Winter?

53. Hugs OR Kisses?
Hugs and kisses o.O

55. What Is Your Favorite Dessert?

59. What Books Are You Reading?
Ummmmm, Really, Really good book called "Watching Alice"

60. What's On Your Mouse Pad?
The globe

62. What Did You Watch Last night on TV?
Adult Swim.

63. Favorite Smells?
Roses and Lavender

64. Favorite Sounds?

65. Rolling Stones or Beatles?

66. What's the furthest you've been from home?
I don't know...

67. Do you have a special talent?
I can sing?

68. What is your ringtone?
Cannon in D
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Because i'm a loser like that... [17 Feb 2005|07:16am]
[ mood | hyper ]

Tell me what the first thing you would say if you woke up and I was in bed with you.

(add to comments)

(and I stole this from Kats because i'm a loser like that)


Winners to be added to my AIM profile thingy.

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Woo, internet college! [14 Feb 2005|10:44am]
[ mood | happy ]

So it looks like i'm number 95 on the waiting list for dorms for college, and thats only if I put a $300 waiting fee. Which is a waste of money for knowing that 95 people have to drop out of rooms in order for you to get one.

So that means I will have to commute. My parents forbid me to get an appartment in Williamsport, even though I know the area like the back of my hand (lived there for 4 years before moving here) but my mother is afraid of me "Getting stabbed or raped."

So she came up to me with this new idea.

My first year of college online. I'm getting a computer as my graduation gift, and if I do that, I can do classes at my conviniance, work almost full time (I'll be doing classes online the other half of the time) and by then I can save enough money to get my own apartment, and get ready for the other three years of college. Its much cheeper, and so on.

At first I was like "ehh..." but now that I think about it, its not a bad idea at all. I had plans on moving to Philidalphia after I graduate because I wanted to open and run a day care center over there, and I love living in the city. The place I might take online college from -is- in Philidalphia, and if I wanted to transfer to the campus my second year, I could. So that means I could be living somewhere sooner, and have more money.

Not a bad plan at all.

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Horoscopies >:D [13 Feb 2005|11:11am]
[ mood | weird ]

Your values are transforming now, but you might spend too much energy resisting these changes. Let's face it: you Goats are willing to change, but only when you know that it is absolutely necessary. Now, the clues are coming at you from various directions. The sooner you are willing to accept what is happening, the happier the ending.

I think I know what this is about.

because I had a dream about it.

So i'm kinda freaked out.

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[10 Feb 2005|07:09am]
[ mood | sick ]

I feeeeeeeelllllllll likkkkkkkkkkkeeeeeeeee crapppppppppppppppppppp.



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Lights! Camra! Action! Drama... [08 Feb 2005|06:56am]
[ mood | sick ]

-__- I loveeeeeee musical, I loveeeeee my lineage >:D but I -hate- the drama.

I'll give you one example.

My friend A. is going out with a really cuter soccer player. Shes appsolutioly maddddd for him, they both love eachother very much, and have been dating for a long while.

He is in the number "Steam Heat." where he has to Dance with two other guys, and M.Z. M.Z is the number one student in our class, and a HUGE over achever. Oh, and there is huge speculation that she cheated on all of her chem tests last year, but thats not part of this story.

A. was kinda all "Man,he gets to dance already, and we don't get to dance until friday when we do Seven and a 1/2 cents." so she was a little Jelous that he gets to dance already, but it didn't bother her -that- much. That was until she got to see his dance number.

Nowwwwwwww there is drama. M.Z has openly clamied to have liked A. boyfriend. A, who knows this, didn't realize that he was in her dance number. The whole time M.Z was looking "Dirty." at A's. boyfriend, and A. had to sit there and watch what was going on. A. started breaking out in tears by the end of the rutene because M.Z did nothing but look at his ass and so on.

-__- now there is girl Drama in the group.


And I really -don't- like M.Z., all I see her ever becoming is a house wife, thowing all of her years of knowledge away. But anyway -_- this is the story.

petty yes, but to most of the girls, big deal XD

oh, and I have the virius thats going around. Laruen is running a fever, X-tina is sick, Kara is home sick, and everyone in school is sick.

I think I might sta in an inqubator for a few days.

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awww ;__; I wish I could have gone [05 Feb 2005|01:03pm]
I missed sooooooooooo much fun ;___;

Ah, I've been looking at apartments alll day, and my parents kinda sqashed that idea (still might look into it) and this is what my Horoscope said for today *ironic*

You feel at conflict, for your mind is full of big ideas, your dreams are overtaking your waking hours and your feelings are popping out all over. You may not be as inclined to keep everything to yourself. This is not comfortable terrain for you Capricorns. Remember that your emotions don't have to be explained. Your feelings don't have to fit into the outer world. They simply need to be felt. You'll return to your senses soon enough.

maybe it really is a bad idea o.O

Sorry Phil and Kelly ;__; I wish I could have gone!
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Stolen from my Kelleh. [02 Feb 2005|09:12am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

[Name] Jamie M. Herkel. M for Marie
[Nickname] Jams, Jamie-wong(don't ask), Jamlet, Jupi
[Screen name] Xoutoftheashesxx, Jupichild
[Birthday] Jan. 7th
[Age] 18 (woot woot)
[Astrological sign] Capricorn
[Chinese zodiac sign?] Rabbit
[Location] Larelton, PA
[Religion] Agnostic
[Eye color] dark brown
[Height] 5'5"
[Shoe size] 9
[Parents still together] both devorced, both re-married.
[Siblings] 6
[Nieces/Nephews] Not yet o.O give them a few more years.
[Pets] 6 guinea pigs, 1 cat, 1 hairless dog, 1 turtle, 1 other dog, and partrige in a pare tree.
[In school/graduated] Senior in high school
[What do you drive] a getto cutless, oldsmobele

[Color] Pink and black
[Number] 13, so unlucky
[Animal] Kitties
[Vehicle] Cutless
[Flower] pink roses
[Scent] Lavender, rose, or lilac
[Drinks] Water
[Soda] Soda = gross
[Book] Harry Potter, duh
[Band] Modest Mouse
[Song] "Ocean breaths salty"

Do you...
[Color your hair?] Nope
[Twirl your hair?] With my fingers
[Have tattoos?] hate needles
[Have Piercings?] 3 in each ear
[Drink/Smoke?] ....smoke when stressed
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] sometimes
[Want more more piercings?] Possibly
[Like cleaning?]when i'm in the mood
[Write in cursive or print?]my cursive is pretty, but I print
[Own a web cam?] Nope
[Know how to drive?] Yes. I know how to crash too.
[Ever get off the damn computer?] When i'm bored ~_^

Have you ever...
[Gotten a speeding ticket?] Nope
[Been in a wreck?] -__- unfortunatly
[Been arrested?] Never.
[Been in a fist fight?] No ;(
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] Many-a-times. Its fun
[Held a gun?] Toy guns
[Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name?] nopes
[Considered a life of crime?] ;)
[Cheated on someone? ] No.
[Cried over a girl?] Maybe
[Cried over a boy?] Yes.
[Lied to someone?] HAHAHA... no, never
[Fallen for your best friend?] Ehh
[Been rejected?] Yes
[Used someone?] not really
[Been used?] Yeah.
[Been cheated on?]
[Experimented with homosexuality?] Yeah
[Current mood] tired
[Current taste] chocolate
[Current hair] in pigtails
[Current thing I ought to be doing] working on school work
[Current cds in stereo]Modest Mouse ~_^
[Current job] finishing High School.

1. Jamie
2. Jam's
3. Jamie-Wong

1. Jupichild
2. outoftheashes
3. outoftheflames

1. My eyes
2. my boobs
3. my hair

1. My appearance
2. My... habits
3. My apathy/laziness

1. Russian
2. (Mom)Itialian, Irish
3. (Dad) Compleatly Irish.

2. Hights
3. Having a gun next to my head. That would scare me.

1. Air
2. Water
3. Hoodie

1. Pink pants
2. Gap Hoodie
3. Shirt that says "After School Special."

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS(or artists at the moment):
1. The Used
2. Modest Mouse
3. Abandion Ship

1. Ocean Breaths Salty
2. Since U been gone
3. Box of sharp objects

1. become a circus clown
2. not procrastinate
3. Knitting ;x (HA)

1. Trust
2. Comfort
3. Lots and lots of laughing

1. Eyes
2. Hands
3. chest

1. Lips
2. Hips
3. legsss

2. Lose weight
3. Cook

1. Playing music
2. Artsy fartsy stuff
3. Singing

1. Sleep
2. Sleep.
3. Sleep?

1. Head start teacher
2. Social worker
3. Modern day Pirate

1. England again
2. Japan
3. Ireland

All done. Just like my studyhall. Bye!

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